I have discovered that even the most perfect looking life situations can be ripped out from under you without warning. I'm in that situation now. First my housing situation will be changing. To what I'm not sure. I could end up in a smaller room kind of like renting a room in the USA. One of the things I was so grateful to leave behind when I moved to Thailand. It's a financial thing from my housemates who I rent from. They don't have a choice and unfortunately it effects me as the renter. I'm hoping to find a place of my own instead. One of the reasons being that my housemates who I moved to S. Thailand for the sole purpose of joining them in ministry and wherever that led. Since I didn't know anyone else down here when I moved here, I was looking forward to building on my relationship with them. But that might change in a month or so. They are having issues with visas that may send them back to the USA leaving me here alone. While I understand why they would leave it doesn't change the fact that I will be alone here in a place that I once called paradise. For 2 yrs we have been praying for me to get a job to join them. Now that it's happened, it may all end and I can't just up and leave too. But my job is in trouble due to lack of enrollment of students. The school could actually close if the enrollment doesn't go up. Loneliness and Unemployment in a foreign country is not exactly what I had prayed for. It's also the worst time of year to job hunt so if I do have to do that, I will have to settle for anything with a paycheck and probably in Bangkok where I don't want to be. I do have some comfort in knowing that I do have a few friends in BKK even if I do hate the city.
So this is my life now. I gave up everything I loved and the people i got to know for something that may not even exist in 2 months. I don't even know what to do with this except hope that moving here was not a monumental mistake. I really do miss Chiang Mai now and wish I had never moved. I was finally settled there. So you tell me and please pray about it first because I am in so much turmoil over this. Where do I go from here?
